I'm Not Okay!!!!!

"I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)"


"I'm Not Okay" - My Chemical Romance


Well the song isn't a complete fit, but that part at least fits my mood today.  Read on to find out why.


If you read my last blog, I reported that I had found a roommate.  Well guess I was wrong.  The girl who I thought would be my awesome new roommate has screwed me over.  Today she emailed me with "bad news".  She is moving to California in the middle of July.  WHAT???!!!!!  How does someone go from a long term commitment to stay in the house I am about to rent in on Sunday to moving to California by Thursday?  It makes no sense.  I don't see how such a thing could have just come so spontaneously after I was told otherwise.  It just doesn't add up for me.  If it was even a remote possibility at the time she met with me, she should have told me then.  I am very upset with the whole situation.


Why do I have such horrible luck with moving and finding roommates?  This is my 3rd attempt, and problems still seem to come up from nowhere.  Am I cursed to encounter all the bad situations that exist?  I just don't get it.


Okay I'm done ranting for now.  My search for a roommate has resumed.  I can now only hope that I will find a good situation where the person won't flake out on me.  My hopes are not very high at this point.