Well this update is probably overdue. Life gets crazy and hectic sometimes. After everything I went through during June looking for a place to live and new roommates, I ended up back where I least wanted to be. I moved back in with my parents in stupid far-away-from-everything-in-SLC Riverton. I reached the day before the final day of my lease, and still had no place to live, and decided it was best to not rush into anything. I hope to not be living with parents for too long. I am however taking advantage of having no rent or utilities to pay for as long a I am here. I just hope I can find a good roommate situation for when I decide to move out again.
Now I have to rant a bit. I am so tired of my family flinging insults at me. I can accept that they choose not to support me being transgender, but is it really too much to ask for some kindness and civility? My mom insists on heavily emphasizing the male pronouns when speaking to or about me. One of my sisters has also taken to doing the same. It is very insulting.
Here's an example of a recent incident. I was playing with the niece who belongs to my oldest sister. I wasn't doing anything different from any other time when I play with her. My niece tells everyone to go away, and tries to push them away. It's a game to her. Well on this occasion my other sister who was babysitting decided to hit me with "stop it, you're scaring her with your long hair." WHAT???!!! Are you serious?? What kind of stupid remark is that? Keep in mind I started growing my hair out before this niece was even born, so all she knows is my long hair. As if that wasn't bad enough, she decided to insult me further as I walked away. She said "UNCLE Jason" with extra emphasis on the Uncle part. GRRR!!!!
I understand that I am still presenting as a male, and that I still need to be a male to the nieces and nephew. However there is no need to insult me by placing emphasis on the male pronouns. They have to know that I would find it insulting. It is just plain rude for them to continue doing it. My family seriously has to wonder why I didn't come around much during the 13 months I wasn't living here? Why in the world would I want to spend time with people who insult me?
Okay I'm dong ranting. I will do what I need to in order to move out on my own again very soon. This will just be a minor speed bump in my journey into womanhood, Although a speed bump with the benefit of allowing me to improve my financial situation to help with the costs of transition.
-Katie Marie
