Birthday Reflections

I want to apologize in advance, as this will be a blog for me to vent.  Something has been bothering me for the past few weeks, and I feel I need to let it out.  My birthday was just over three weeks ago.  It passed without a lot of fanfare this year.  Unfortunately when the day arrived, I ended up feeling under the weather.  I basically stayed in my bedroom all day.  This really put a cloud over the day.  I didn't have an appetite, and didn't feel much like celebrating.  It must have been some sort of 24 hour bug, as I felt fine the following day.

As you might imagine, it's not much fun feeling so crummy on your birthday of all days.  Anyone who knows me well enough will likely know that I can tend to be rather emotional.  I feel this particular quality leads me to take things a bit too personally at times.  I just felt a bit forgotten on my birthday.  Let me just say, I am not overlooking those who did acknowledge me on that day.  I want to say thank you to all those who took the time to wish me a happy birthday.  It was definitely appreciated.

It took until late in the evening on that day to hear anything from some of my siblings.  Only one of my siblings wished me a happy birthday early in the day.  One of my other siblings has still not said anything to me.  I have many people who I consider to be close friends that failed to acknowledge my birthday.  Now let me just make it clear, that I don't expect gifts.  All I really want is to just know that people remember me, and feel that they care for me as I care for them.  To me a simple "happy birthday" accomplishes just that.

I don't want to place too much importance on Facebook, but it even reminds you when it is someone's birthday.  At the time I had around 129 friends on Facebook.  I am selective about who I friend on Facebook, and I try to socialize with each person on my list.  Out of all those friends, only 16 posted to my timeline.  There is a message board that I am not as active on, where they actually created a thread to wish me a happy birthday.

Why am I posting this blog?  I wanted to convey the fact that this hurt me.  Maybe I am placing too much importance on this, but it feels important to me.  On the bright side, my birthday falls on a Friday next year.  I think I might try to plan some sort of party.  I have just over 11 months to figure that out.  Also just so this blog doesn't feel entirely negative, I'll conclude this with two tweets I received from two of my current favorite singers.  They both happen to be playing shows in SLC in the coming months as well.  I'm also going to include the lyric video for "Cameron" from Jillette Johnson, which is a song that holds extra special meaning for me.